Sandy didn't just take my house and rack it for 10 hours during it's wrath, it took my lifestyle, my community, quick chats with my neighbors away from me. It broke up my family and how we communicate and relate to each other. The way it used to be is no more. Things have changed and not for the better.
Besides the countless phone calls of the aftermath that I'm still doing on an almost daily basis, I'm just trying to get through each day as sane as possible.
When my sister came from Jersey to bring two very much needed gas cans for the generator that my neighbor borrowed to pump out 4 houses, she stood in front of what was left of my house and said, you didn't tell me it was that bad! She was in shock. Months later, I'm still in shock at what Sandy did to us. I will never feel secure again living across the street from the beach. Every high wind warning or every nor-easter will cause me to be a nervous wreck. If the Hurricanes and storms keep coming the way that it's predicted, I will not be able to be sane living in that house again once it gets knocked down and rebuilt. I don't want to live in that fear of having that happen again in the same house, in the same neighborhood. I want to look forward to rebuilding but I'm finding it difficult cause I'm dealing with the INS company and the build it back program paperwork maze. If they ever get their heads out of the sand, maybe that program will work. But I'm still waiting for the light at the end of that tunnel.
